When I first experienced kink, it was like coming home. I totally rejected the notion of vanilla sex and became engaged and interested. Sex was no longer boring or something to be endured. Vanilla became foreign and I happily accepted that.
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One thing I struggle with is self-confidence. Both in what I do and more physically. I do things in real life under both my real name and a pseudonym and find it easier not being “me” – under my pseudonym, I am ‘more than,’ an exaggerated, more confident self. Still struggling when I do things that put me in a more public gaze, but easier than when I’m just me. It’s my ying and yang, my extrovert and my introvert.
This week’s prompt for Wicked Wednesday is ‘Celebrity’ which threw me as in every day life, I hate the limelight. And I’m not a fan of popular culture. I’m interested in people who shine and make a difference, not fly-by-night z-listers. I feel I can’t compare with the people I admire, so I try and fade into the background whenever I can. However, sexually or in the bedroom, things change…
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This year has thrown all sorts of things at me. Some incredible highs but a lot of lows. My mental health has taken a beating, I felt like I’ve lost control, yet discovered once and for all that I’m stronger than I think I am. And I know the year is not over yet. There’s a lot more to come.
Names and titles are fluid for me. I’m in a relationship where we’ve tried various dynamics, none of which have ever fully worked out or felt quite right. So I think in terms of how I define myself instead. And I identify in various proportions, at different times, as a variety of labels.
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